The wine I made was a fail. Possibly the wrong kind of grapes. Also the grow lamp was a fail.

Listening to the music I wrote. 142 "songs", roughly 8 hours worth. Ahhh, the incredible injustice of it all. But then I also worked my butt off for a decade in college just to have my career destroyed. And far worse than that has happened. To me, that is. That which can't be described for example.

It's nothing new. Has happened to millions. Billions. More.

It's a coping mechanicsm that works except for making nothing at all matter.

The wine though appears to not have had enough grapes in it. Also knats managed to get in it. I'll have to try again. Although I'm unfortunately a teetotaler currently, so there's no hurry.

So those hops in beer, they really do decrease libido. I never thought I'd care, but actually I'd really rather not have my libido decreased thanks so much. Also a depressant. And maybe decrease athletic performance. (Because of the estrogen?) So ordered some unhopped malt extract today, as I can't find any unhopped beer to buy. Also planning on "priming" my wine (adding a bit of sugar before bottling to make it champagne or an asti or whatever.) Thinking of just using a lemon as a preservative for the unhopped beer as that supposedly works just fine for wine. Rather not be ordering mugwort, yarrow root, etc online... We shall see.

There is also the question of how much it really matters to use certain special types of yeast as opposed to just what they have at the grocery store.

Anyway, the online info is unsatisfactory. Most are ignorant concerning gruit, think hops some essential ingredient.

Started my first batch of beer. Just a standard brew, basically just following the direction and throwing some packets/cans into some water. But have more interesing plans in the future. Want to experiment with beer that doesn't use hops. Instead gruit, etc.

Also plan on making wine. Maybe even today.

So basically yeast turns sugar into alcohol. And that's it. Beer is barley, hops, yeast, and sugar. The wine recipe I'm going to do is grapes, sugar, lemons and yeast. And it really sounds like gruit would be better than hops.