Hope ~ 1/Security
The amount of hope we have for the future is generally inversely proportional to the amount of security we have as we age. Hopefully at least, as we age, we gain security to make up for the loss of hope.

Compassion ~ 1/Proximity
The further away someone is, the more we seem to give a damm about them. In other words, compassion is inversely proportional to proximity. And the distance can be both physical and in terms of time. So we can be fascinated to learn all about some ancestor we not only can't ever meet, but can't ever even actually speak to. Meanwhile we as often as not have virtually nothing to do with our living relatives. Or at least really wish we had nothing to do with them.

Intelligence ~ 1/Happiness
Happiness is generally about finding ways to delude yourself. Happiness is about myopia. Focusing on small inconsequential transient phenomena from one moment to the next, for, your entire lifetime. DO NOT see the big picture. Manage somehow to hold on to religion/mysticism. Find this world to a relatively wonderful place. Etcetera.

This new show about people finding out about their ancestors sickens me. My family doesn't even speak to any our of relatives. Not our great aunt. Not my mom's sister's family. No one at all of my biological father's family or him. If someone offered to tell me all about my ancestors, I'd say I really don't care at all to hear about them. Because you know, let's KEEP IT CONSISTENT.

I've felt more secure lately. And it did make up for the lack of hope. Last week or so, security feelings are somehow receding. Why, I don't really know. Just too much negative stuff at work lately. And it is generally all about work.

Life, that is. Like it, or not.

My I'm in such a good mood today.

Best not to think. I might ruin it.

...(sigh) Now it occurs to me I missed a training class that was right after the 8 hour training class I had. This gives me anxiety about the possibility that some punishment awaits me. Some rightwing force stuff to keep us workers on the straight and narrow. Now I lay here with a tinge of anxiety that ruins the happiness I was feeling.

So then:

When fearful, when anxious, find someone else to be concerned about. Someone else to worry about instead of yourself. Someone else to focus your concern upon other than yourself. That's what I was doing previously today. How unfortunate to be pulled down into selfish concerns.

I suppose that's an original thought. That a society based on negative reinforcement stops people from being empathetic, compassionate and pulls them down into being selfish, simply for self preservation.

But instead must redirect.

And when thinking negatively of someone, of their unethical actions, redirect to the social norms of this society. It's the system, not the people.

Redirect.

...what works even better in this case is to pretend I hadn't remembered about the class I missed. Or forget that I remembered.