Religion is about purposely being illogical because the alternative (if you think about it) is too awful. Atheism is about not actually thinking about the alternative. Which is that you're going to cease to exist and therefore everything you do is futile; a truth that one can't actually face and go on living. All "atheists" are actually quite mystical in their thinking, on a subconscious level, just the same as theists.

Life is a predicament. There is no way to exist that isn't illogical. The thing to do is minimize the illogic. So what is more illogical: ignoring the futility of existence, or making up a fairytale so that life isn't futile?

Is ignoring things and stuffing your mysticism solely down into your subconscious less illogical than making stuff up?

The goal is to be happy without harming others. Organized religion has caused a lot of harm. But atheism can lead to nihilism. Seems the key to being "atheist" and not depressed is staying "reactionary", always remembering those theists and how you're better than them, instead of actually really thinking about how futile and basically horrific things actually are. Thinking instead about how strong you are and able to face the truth unlike those weak theists. IOW, just thinking about you versus them as opposed to just ignoring them and actually really thinking about all the suffering, the banality, the absurdity and utter pointlessness of your fleeting existence.

Bored because you don't perceive all the details and thus classify it as the same old thing.

Not bored because you don't remember that it's the same old thing.

Not bored because you don't have much of a classification system. You don't realize that this is just a slightly different variation of the same old thing.

There is something very pleasurable in seeing all the minute detail, in being myopic, in focusing one's concentration for a long time period upon something quite small. To go in the other direction is to ultimately stand face to face with The Nothing, to see that everything reduces down to the same old thing. And that this same old thing is all that there is, in every direction that you may look. No matter how far back you stand and how large the view is, that's all there is.

There may be a wisdom in taking this step back and having such an understanding of the essential nature of the whole world through such an extreme classification system, but it is at the same time, seems to destroy all meaning in life.

It is rational and it leads to nihilism. The same as a true rationality concerning death means nihilism. Total rationalism = nihilism.

So then one must be myopic. One must pull back from such an extreme classification system. One must enjoy the minutiae of differences and swim forever within them. One must, in other words, hold back the ultimate understanding, one must hold back from total rationality.

The same as one can't truly be an atheist. To really remove all mysticism from our subconscious and from all our daily motivations, would mean perfect nihilism and one must instead, unfortunately, embrace some degree of mysticism, one must hold back from total rationality.

Awful to say. But better than nihilism or hypocrisy.