Friday, September 30, 2011

Ran first 3 miles continous in 23:08, improvement of 1 minute, somewhat expected as the second time usually is a big improvement. Then rested for just 2 minutes (last time rested for 3 minutes) and did 3/2's for 3 more miles. In a total time of 51:35. Huge PR for 6 miles. But 2 of those minutes were expected. Still had an additional 25 seconds of extra improvement in the 3/2's, which did feel kind of fast. Think the sit-ups are really helping.

Next week back to just running twice. Three times a week just doesn't feel right mentally, even with having the whole week off. Did run 24 miles this week, which I guess is the most I've ever run.

I think I want to try a continous run of 6 miles, followed by 6 miles of 3/2's. Maybe try that once next week.... Eventually hoping to do two 15 mile runs each week.

Thursday, September 29, 2011

If you have enough different hobbies/chores, you can procrastinate by doing one instead of another.

So this first year in the raised bed enclosed garden, we planted very late. And tried:
broccoli-caterpillars, etc seem to love it

peas-I think they needed to be staked like tomatoes??

beans-loved the vining but strings were no good

cucumbers-I think planted too late, not enough sun lately, except for not fruiting, grew like crazy though, spread out and took up too much space actually

carrots-not quite ready yet, looking good though, I think

peppers-ok, far from prolific though

also some sunflowers, and hydrangas.

Next year want to do onions, garlic, tomatoes, peppers, a few mammoth sunflowers and finally green beans provided vining nonstring green beans exist. Maybe carrots again. Maybe some beans??

Cucumbers seem to take up too much room and I don't really like the taste anyway. Broccoli is a pain because of the pests. Peas seem like they'd be a ton of work relative to results.
Have a bad habit with cello playing that I procrastinate just a bit. Till like noon or so on my days off. Often I wait till I've drank a beer, which I don't want to be doing at 9AM. But then of course I hold back on other things often until after I've played my cello. I don't want to lift weights before playing of course. And I often avoid going outside and getting dirty in the garden, etc before playing. So somedays a good part of the list of things to do get's put off until the afternoon. So, need to just play the cello in the morning.

This week I only worked 2 days (14 hour day and 20 hour day), and have been off mon, t, w, th (and then friday). Feel like my cello playing has gotten much better with getting 4 consecutive days to play. Too bad I can't normally manage this. My stamina for playing even has improved. Instead of tiring out a bit short of an hour. On Wednesday I easily played 90 minutes and did the same on Thursday. Trying to come home after a 14 hour day, when I'm exhausted, and play cello, just hasn't worked out though.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Lately reading Nail Your Novel by Roz Morris. I don't even know who Roz Morris is but it seems useful practical advice.

Started Quantum Thief. Unfortunately the sample was a good read but after I bought it, it isn't working for me at all. Will try again. I don't know. I don't seem to like sci-fi, like I like fantasy.

Now beginning The Black Prism by Brent Weeks. Loved his Night Angel tril. Seems good actually to write something early on. 5% we have the hero Kip, who, whaddya know? Has an ace up his sleeve. But he didn't even realize he had it. Until a life or death moment arised in which he barely survived. Now he'll have to develop his special ability of course.

My main writing project as of now is tentatively titled the Deadlands. What ace will the hero have? I was thinking when he flees to the deadlands, that's when he'll aquire an ace. Yes. And before that, you could say that he's the type of person to flee in the first place and intelligent enough to survive awhile in the deadlands, which plays a role in him aquiring his ace. I don't want his ace to be quite such an accident of genetics. Not quite just tiddah! You're special. One must have the right mindset to obtain knowledge. And POWER.

So finally, absolutely refusing to live with the injustice, and also intelligence and withstanding hardship will lead to the ace. Somehow.
Today I ran continously for the first 3 miles. Managed 24:06 which really isn't a big deal. Then did 3/2's for 5 more miles. 54:00 at 6 miles and 74:02 at 8 miles. Nice improvement overall. Felt like the sit-ups I did Monday have already helped a bit. Probably should have been doing them all along.

I'm still slow but I'm improving. Was surprised that after that first 3 miles I had 5 good miles of intervals in me. Could have continued actually but I want to save something for Friday.

Been waking up with a bit of lower back pain, I think because I've been rolling onto my stomach while sleeping. Not sure what to do about that. Getting that arch just makes my back hurt after a while. Perhaps a lot more stomach muscle will stop excessive arch even while asleep/relaxed.

But I don't really know if that's it exactly. I hadn't seemed to have the problem much till recently. When I added overheads presses it came back. Quit them and had a couple OK days, but then I added sit-ups. Yet, it's only after sleeping, so... somehow certain exercise makes me want to sleep on my stomach???? So I wake up too early, (but not like I used to as 3am like some pitiful old man) and I have to really try to curl up to undo the excessive arching, or put a bunch of pillows under my shoulders, for the dull nagging pain to ease up enough to get a bit more sleep.

Monday, September 26, 2011

On Friday I tried a 3/1 and crashed and burned 5 miles in. Had run the first 3 in 25:03 without trying so much. Seemed that changing the rest time from 2 to 1 minutes after so long really hit me hard. Into overtraining I guess, my HR was still elevated on Sunday. This Monday did the first 3 as a 3/2 in a disappointing 26:37. I felt so damm slow and lethargic that I then mainly did a 2/2 for the next 7 miles. 10 miles total in 100 minutes and 46 seconds.

Did 75 one legged partial squats on each leg afterwards. Felt like my weak point has moved to lifting my legs up, so I added a set of sit-ups.

It was too hot here for quite a while. Then it immediately switched to too cold. No sight of the sun for weeks. The heat probably killed the one tree. The lack of sun wasn't so good for the garden. There will be no cucumbers. And caterpillars wreaked havoc on the broccoli. Finally now it's perfect out. Sun is shining. Perfect temp. And I've got the whole week off.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

I have tons and tons of baby goldfish in my pond. Too many. Gave a couple to my nephew. But it was just a piddly one gallon bowl without a filter. I told him that honestly they probably wouldn't survive for long in it. And I told him I'd buy him a much larger aquarium if he successfully learned how to play fur elise.

The idea just being to get him thinking about just trying to achieve things in his life. It's not that he needs to be good at music, just that he should just try to start doing something with himself. Get in the habit of trying to achieve things. And learn what it's like to get something as the result of hardwork.

A month has passed and he hasn't done anything. Those fish sit there slowly dying. Perhaps he's ashamed about it. Perhaps he'll slowly learn to dislike me for making him feel ashamed.

He's only eight though. But perhaps he's a bit like his mother, who goes to the emergency room once or twice a month for migraines, yet won't even give up caffeine despite knowing it cured her brother's headaches.

Here I am, at 38, and the obstacles one encounters in writing have still successfully stopped me cold. And he's only 8. So it may be too much, although certainly many children could manage it. It is that I'm trying to help him be a better person than I've been. But I forget just how much else he's dealing with at that age. There's a lot that comes ahead of learning to play the piano. Also they have him playing soccer and swimming and he seems to lay around exhausted a lot of the time. Oh well.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Such an extreme dreamer I've been in my life. How can it be I've never really written a true, completed story?

Other than being nothing special really when it comes to finding words and such, what happens when I'd sit down is, I'd just be blank, and then some junk would come out. I'd end up typing stuff that was just me literally talking to myself and so on. And that place. That stupid blank place. It's like a void. The writer's idiot void. Every few years I'd go there for a bit and slowly die out there in that void, then retreat from writing for a few more years.

It's time to return to the void. Unfortunately my job is such that i really can't manage to go back for 30 minutes 7 days a week. But I should be able to manage 4 days a week.

Just 30 minutes to start. See if a month later I'm still successfully managing to sit in that void for 30 minutes 4 days a week, or even perhaps doing a bit of actual writing instead.

Reading Harumi Murakami, What I Talk about When I Talk About Running.
Has some writing insights.

In the past people have talked about how one just has to sit down each day and write, and I rejected this notion because writing absolute crap, doesn't seem to me to serve any useful purpose. Perhaps though over the years my young relatively empty mind has become not quite so empty. And I will find less void and more actual meaningful direction, now.

I will at least try to have far more patience in the void.

Also was reading Storm Front by Jim Butcher.
In truth the only thing keeping me going is that a past gf loved it. And is asking if I read it. And I feel a bit bad to say I stopped a short way in. But it just has such a typical detective/private eye feel to it. I don't know. Everything's a bit too surface for me. Somewhat along recent lines with all the light vampire books.

Also The Witch and other stories by Anton Chekov, which interestingly has very much the same feel as Uncle Vanya. Doesn't have escapist decadence though.





Some of these Beksinski pictures come closest to the world I've imagined the last 20 years when hearing Skinny Puppy's Remission.

Monday, September 19, 2011

3/2 for 9 miles. First 3 in 26:25, first 6 in 55:00 (including walking the last two minutes), whole 9 miles in 84:45. Although here and there, ran beyond the three minutes. But definitely getting a bit better. Came just a bit short of one light short of half mile mark for first 3 minutes. Big pr's. 12s at 3 miles, 45s at 6 miles. 2 minutes at 9. Mainly have increased stamina to keep going. Maybe I'll go ahead and add that tenth mile now.

Then partial one legged squats. 55 each leg. Right leg felt pretty damm weak today. Knee had been hurting beforehand for no known reason.

And then weightlifting. Blah. Up to 13 reps for behind the neck press of 70 piddly pounds. And so on. Who cares. Oh, added close grip benches and pulldowns. So far haven't had any insomnia from the weightlifting. The lack of caffeine may be helping in that dept.

Haven't had a blueberry smoothie in a long time. Also doing quite bad on green vegetables. And flax meal for that matter. Have been using the rice cooker to cook rice and the crock pot to make beans. And drinking beer.

One nice recipe: package of black eyed beans, one tomato, half an onion, spoon of curry, some garlic, spoon of salt, some lemon juice, handful of cashews in the crockpot overnight. Eaten with rice from rice cooker. Trying to mix it up though. Different bean stew concoctions each time. That was my favorite one so far though. Such a cheap and easy way to eat. What held me back all those years?????

Thursday, September 15, 2011

9 miles. First 6 as a 3/2. First 3 in 26:38 (last time did 26:55), first 6 in 55:45 (last time did 56:04), then did last 3 miles as a 2/2. Still finished about as fast as last time in 87:05. Finished with 50 partial one legged squats on each leg. Think next time I'll do a 3/1 for 3, then a 3/2 for 3 and then a 2/2 for 3. Later a bit of weightlifting.

Monday, September 12, 2011

A 3/2 for 9 miles. First 6 in 56:04. PR by almost a minute. Finished in 86:55. Which was a 2 minute PR I think. Partial one legged squats played a big role I think. Maybe also the jolt of adrenaline at work on Saturday dealing with the pseudoseizure crazy lady. So that's one good thing about that. Thanks crazy lady!

Weight holding at 200 pounds. Considering adding a single set of chins and benchs... in with the overhead presses, curls and tri pushdowns. Maybe on Wednesday (off W, Th, F). Worried about getting insomnia.

Also bought a punching bag. Had one years ago. This way if I ever have to punch someone I'll hurt them so bad I'll go to jail for years.... Bought it because....? Maybe feeling wimply down here at 200 pounds.

Friday, September 9, 2011

The Magician King by Lev Grossman
So the Narnia/Fillory thing is unusual. That's a bigger thing than the Harry Potter thing. This one really similar to the Voyage of the Dawn Treader I think? But it's not like he "stole" the idea or something.

I liked this book. Favorite thing was Julia and friends attempting to summon a god. There was just the right amount of time spent on that whole endeavor and those people such that one really cared about the horror which happened, but not to the point that one was just pissed off at the author, such as how GR Martin, for example, kills people off.

This book was highly different from the previous book, which was very aimless. This was a more typical real adventure story, which Grossman, is right there with you throughout acknowledging such things.

Anti-climatic ending. But doesn't attempt and fail. Doesn't try to have a stupendous ending, doesn't fail like Steven King, for example, did with a number of his books. Just ends. And that's OK.

It seems this book gave me some idea. Which I've unfortunately lost before managing to write it down... Something to do with successfully being a person who writes.... I've had so many though, that one eventually figures they're all useless. Plus I'm just too busy lately. Studying for CNRN exam and so on.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

"Combined the 14 millions official unemployed; the "underemployed" part-timers (8.8 million) who want fulltime work; and "discouraged" people (2.6 million) who have stopped looking make up 16.2 percent of working age Americans."

In an article on the front page of the local paper. Wonder why such info is finally out there? Is it because we have a democrat in office? Because they want to keep better track? Or because the corporate media is finally putting it out there to make him look bad? Always annoyed me that instead of this breakdown, the underemployed and the people out of work for more than 6 months were ignored.
Today I did a 3/2 for 9 miles. Interestingly I did the first 6 in 56:59, which is a 3 minute improvement from previous run. And 12 second PR. I guess my body needed a bit to adapt to the weightlifting. I guess. Total run time was slightly under 89 minutes, I think. 88:53 maybe. Then 40 one leg partial squats for each leg.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

The Magicians by Lev Grossman
Really liked this one. Although could be said it's a bit on the extremely nihilistically depressing side. Sorry but I don't think being a magician so clearly turns life into such a meaningless, pointless affair. He could use his magic ability to combat all the corruption in politics and the resulting misery of the populace. I suppose that just wouldn't work though for what he wanted to do. He wanted perhaps to use magic/Harry Potteresque world as a vehicle to examine the malaise and emptiness that us ordinary people are stuck with, except, I just don't think these magicians would really be stuck in such a similar situation. And, I don't know but, the fact that he makes them such that they are, makes them appear to be annoyingly mopey in a stupid kind of way.

I suppose it could be said that that's just what the main character is about, except, it really isn't. Most of the others seem to be similar... No one clearly contradicts his viewpoint. Eliot is quite similar. Alice's parents are that way and there's the idea that this is just how it is for magicians.

There are holes it could be said. There's no antagonist really at all for almost the first half of the book, which is unusual and probably a big turn off for most readers. I suppose it's got a Herman Hesse edge to it, basically. It could be said to be like Harry Potter but for teenagers. Intelligent teenagers. Some of the characters and relationships are somewhat psychologically complex with useful insights. In a lot of ways it's a much more realistic world. Not all the typical silly plot jumps and so on that make up typical story telling. I think there's a book two. Think I'll go start reading it, if there is one.... Although, I doubt it could be as good as book one... Which is really a compliment. There's no simple formula that I can see to be applied to churn out another similar book.
Ran a 3/2 for 8 miles yesterday. Did the first 6 in 60:00, which is almost 3 minutes slower than previous. Had lifted weights once previously, the muscle memory gain really slowed me down, suspect in particular the gain in chest muscle hampered my lung capacity in the short term. Will be interesting to see if I gain a couple minutes back next time.

Didn't even do anything that really directly works the chest muscles, just swinging a dumbell around from behind my back to above my head. Just that clearly caused me to gain back chest muscle. The effect on my run yesterday reminded me of getting in a swimming pool after living at high altitude for a few years, like I just couldn't totally expand my lungs to get enough air in. Should be a very short term effect I think though.

I think, I've figured out a great diet, rice with beans/vegetables, or oatmeal, avoid oils, fat, eat vegan, avoid gluten, caffeine, etc, and then when the cravings to feast get to be a bit much, I drink a beer, which has roughly 170 calories, maybe I even drink two, which is still far less calories (and no fat) than I can easily otherwise put away.

At work where I can't drink beer, the cravings get to me after about 10 hours, and the last three days I've worked I've eaten a large bag of cashews which has more than 1000 calories. I need to stop doing that. Outside of work anyway I have a beer and I'm satisfied.

Friday, September 2, 2011

Grow lamp room. "The Tropic Room"?
Lemon seeds sprouting. Have cherry, grape and blackberry seeds in the refrigerator, that I'll take out in November. I guess I'll do something with the pear seeds also here shortly. Have my doubts about the blueberry seeds. Online it said to use a blender, but I don't think it means a vitamix blender. Suspect it destroyed the seeds... But then sprouting takes a while. So I'll wait much longer. Also planted some catnip seeds, nothing yet. Brought in some water lettuce and hyacinths. The hyacinths in the aquarium are doing very well though. Water lettuce wasn't though. Under perfect conditions they grow like crazy, but otherwise die easily. Doubt they'll do well in the ... "grow lamp room" either.

Need to bring in the papyrus. Haven't successfully got an avocado seed to sprout yet. (I need to eat more avocados...)

Eventually I want this room to just be teeming with verdancy.

...The Library, The Music Studio, The Swing Room, The Theater, The Pond, The Garden... should I buy a 12 foot long 6x6 today...? Still not sure.
Book 5 of George Martin's very well known series.
Such a sprawling thing. Still think there's no way he finishes it well (if he finishes it at all). Otherwise nothing interesting to say. I read it. It was good. Perhaps it eventually gets a formulaic feel, eventually. The way the characters are described. Was wondering if Martin sits down and says, "OK, must have two descriptive lines, 4 of dialogue, etc." If perhaps he has some kind of formula he refers to. If so, it's a pretty good formula.

..Daenerys and her dragons... It's a bit predictable that Martin won't let it happen easily. But you figure eventually the dragons are going to work under Daenerys control and we'll mostly live happily ever after.

The situation with Briene is a little ridiculous. About to be hanged in book 3 I think. Never mentioned in book 4. And then comes running up for a single page on book 5, apparently somehow escaping in a way still not explained.

Did he really kill off Jon Snow? I don't see how that would work.

Will I remember any of this in 5 years when book six comes out?

Will I even be alive then?

Will I still read these sorts of books then?

I have my doubts. Even more so, I doubt that Martin will be alive in 5 years. An old, obese man. Sedentary all his life. I really doubt it. So the story will just fade away with no real ending, like life. That's OK I guess.
Did a bunch of 2/2's while moving up to 8 miles. Did 21 miles last week. This week, right hip/thigh a bit off and just did 14 miles. And switched to a 3/2. Just need a bit of a break. Did run the first 3 minutes as far as I ever have. 2 lights from end of tunnel. Still not quite half a mile in 3 minutes though. Did this 3/2 6 miler in 57:11, felt very easy, felt good.