Looked at Josephine Smith's (aka Rideflame) facebook page. 5 or so years later. Wish I could explain. But to whom anyway? No one would understand. No one would care anyway.

5 years later I see again. Like a demon desperate to experience actual life. Full of rage at what was taken from me.

When S started only texting, I wonder if she understood what she was doing. Or if she had no idea.

It's all crap to even think about. I was right to turn away. Any which way I was right.

But I shall live and die and never find anyone in the real world on my wavelength.