Got a stomach virus. For me, throwing up is generally agony. Threw up first time at 8AM yesterday and it didn't hurt as much as it usually does. Was thinking maybe the running has made throwing up a bit easier. But, I never get it all up with the first bout of vomit. I usually spend about 12 hours in agony before finally throwing up a second time and just about dying in the process.

This time, I never threw up again. I almost did at one point and it hurt very very very bad. Bad enough that I wondered why bother being alive? Which that's usually what I always wonder when this happens. Usually though I wonder that for hours on end in agony. This time I just had a brief moment where that happened and where I went from my skin being dry to drenched in sweat, literally dripping sweat, in about 30 seconds. Also I recall I started hearing a fuzzy sound in my ears. And then, suddenly, surprisingly and so very blessedly, I felt a lot better, and laid down on the bathroom floor and slept for a few hours. Then went to bed, never throwing up a second time, yet slowly getting better. Thank ...

Even called work to go in today from 3 to 7 (so that I can go to that party at S's later.) Hoping to poop out the remaining pestilence here shortly.

It seems I usually do this once every winter. I need to get a nasal gastric tube and suction supplies. I plan on just putting such a tube into my stomach on my own and sucking it all out next time. Absolutely would prefer that to vomiting/lying in agony for 12 hours or more, etc. I could definitely see dying one of these years from these vomiting bouts. They are very taxing along with being agony.