Tuesday, November 9, 2010

My I'm in such a good mood today.

Best not to think. I might ruin it.

...(sigh) Now it occurs to me I missed a training class that was right after the 8 hour training class I had. This gives me anxiety about the possibility that some punishment awaits me. Some rightwing force stuff to keep us workers on the straight and narrow. Now I lay here with a tinge of anxiety that ruins the happiness I was feeling.

So then:

When fearful, when anxious, find someone else to be concerned about. Someone else to worry about instead of yourself. Someone else to focus your concern upon other than yourself. That's what I was doing previously today. How unfortunate to be pulled down into selfish concerns.

I suppose that's an original thought. That a society based on negative reinforcement stops people from being empathetic, compassionate and pulls them down into being selfish, simply for self preservation.

But instead must redirect.

And when thinking negatively of someone, of their unethical actions, redirect to the social norms of this society. It's the system, not the people.

Redirect.

...what works even better in this case is to pretend I hadn't remembered about the class I missed. Or forget that I remembered.