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Journey. First scientists halfway change you to something absurd. Then 3 witches take a piece of your heart and release you.
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Time line straight to hell. Make any demon apologize to change the course if the world.
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Have to like on both levels for ut to work.
conscious level and the animal level.
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Some women really really hate that they are physically weaker than men. So much that it constantly colors their interpretation of the world. With a perfectly nice man they feel as if the threat of violence still hangs in the air. And they hate men for it. And they must show men they can hurt them too. But they can't show by flexing their muscles. They have to actually hurt the man in order to show their "equality". So they try to hurt a man who loves them with the silent treatment, or by lying, manipulating, trying to create jealousy, etc. And they don't feel as if this behavior is unethical. They feel they're just putting things on even terms. If the man objects, that just means the man can't stand things being equal.

They usually don't realize any of this is going on in their head. It bothers some of them so much that they really prefer to just be alone.
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Happy about the damage you've caused. 22 years later? Excellent.
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Because i can't physically hurt you and you can me. Because I'm angry about that. I will hurt you in this lesser way without really reflecting on how unethical what I'm doing is.

Us women aren't as physically strong. We must do these other things. While you aren't actually doing anything at all because physical violence is against the law. Still in my mind you hold the threat of it over my head.
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Possession for 20 years.
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Contraption around penis that can cut it off. Left there for a decade.
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Men who believe in gender equality are more likely to feel moral outrage towards women. They are more likely to commit violence against women. They are more likely to commit suicide.
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Giving birth to and raising a child kind of sucks. It's really not good for your body. Women used to regularly die during the process and even today it really causes lots of physical issues. Caring for this baby then means sleep deprivation for years (and only the women has breast milk so of course she ends up with the majority of the work).
What really drives this home is actually having one. The little things are 24/7 care. Wave goodbye to any kind of life. And then they grow up and at best, see you at Christmas!

Yes. Creating a human being is amazing. But risking your life giving birth, sleep deprivation for years, struggling to not just end up raising a sociopath? It 's not terribly logical to want to be a baby making machine.

And yet, without them that's the end of the human race. So why are we still reproducing? Because women, generally speaking, are a bit less logical. Simple evolution. The logical ones clearly have fewer children. To an extent the IQ of both men and women is kept down. But just like men have more muscle mass and height, women generally speaking are a bit less logical. They still have good vocabularies and score the same on IQ tests that when they were made in the first place were calibrated to ensure they will do about as good on. And there are plenty of exceptions. But generally speaking thus life unfortunately is.

And when they feel moral outrage (which they were a bit more likely to arrive to by faulty reasoning) the kind of actions they want to commit are generally legal. Unlike men who want to go kill people they instead want to spread nasty untrue gossip. They want to spread jealousy. They want to lie. They want to ghost someone because of an untrue rumor they heard and so on. They want to destroy your reputation in the workplace. And beyond the fact that it's not illegal, it just feels like no big deal to tell a nasty lie, while committing violence is something that will hang over your head for the rest of your life.

Because their actions are legal they are far far more likely to go right ahead and do them. Because they are legal, they're far less likely to get into any trouble for it and we don't have any statistics about women telling really harmful lies to compare against murder rates. And so then men can be maligned more than women. Men are 20 times more likely to commit murder. They're good at violence. And there aren't any statistics kept about drama created because of jealousy, lies and manipulation.

When a man is morally outraged at another man they can kill or not kill each other. When a women is morally outraged at another woman they can both lie and manipulate everyone involved or not. But when it's a man and a woman, the man in modern society (provided he's not a violent idiot) is at a disadvantage. And the end result is a suicide rate for men that is 4 times higher than for women.

Because in order to perpetuate the species they have to be less logical. Because their unethical behavior is legal.

As a man you can either be a sexist and expect illogical behavior and hope that you get lucky and find an exception. Or you can believe in perfect equality and get a nasty surprise over and over again, where you feel perpetually morally outraged at what they did and you can't do anything in return.

You can dismiss most of them as illogical and free to perform unethical legal acts or you can spend your life morally outraged.

And a lot of them are really unhappy that they're the ones who have babies and have breast milk. And aren't as strong physically. And make less money, etc. A lot of women are just angry in general. So they illogically take it out on some poor fool who as it so happens is lonely and alas heterosexual and believes in gender equality. So let's treat that potential rapist like shit. Let's lie. Let's ghost.
And again. And again. And again.

Men who believe in gender equality are more likely to commit suicide.

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Men commit violence, which is illegal. Women try to hurt by acts that are generally legal. Both are fueled by moral outrage. Sometimes feeling moral outrage is justified sometimes it really isn't. When as a result you want to do something violent, you generally stop yourself. When it comes more natural to commit hurt in a legal manner, you're more likely to go ahead and do it.
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There is a certain portion of the population that when they feel moral outrage, they want to commit violence. There is another portion that instead cause hurt by legal means (lies, manipulation, etc). The one group is far less likely to implement their actions because they're illegal yet they are disproportionately maligned because they're actions result in court convictions. Meanwhile the target of legal violence is 4 times more likely to commit suicide. 8 times more likely after divorce.
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Two couples. One where the woman is always yelling at the man and acting like she hates him. Though he thinks it's just an act and she has to be humored, like she's part animal. The other where the couple are actual equals and get along fine.
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Women who want children don't want free thinkers. To raise their baby they want security and throughout history the key to security was to be an accepted part of the community/village. And the key to that is conforming.

And women who don't want children still find the exact same things attractive generally speaking because that's what our gene pool has become. The women who really didn't want a conformist have been far less likely to successfully raise children.

And for this same underlying biological reason women are less likely to be freethinkers. Community matters more to them. Fitting in matters more. It takes a village to raise a child.

Otoh Men in general don't care if the women is successful. They don't care if they're a conformist or very unusual. Finding as many different women attractive as possible is what best increases their chances to pass on their genes. Beyond having sex they might successfully spread their genes better be abandoning their family and finding another women, etc.

And at least compared to women men are more freethinking. There is less subconscious concern about the raising of children. They don't care that it takes a village to raise a child. Of course for their own sake they still conform. Just slightly less than women.

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Things have broken down. Women no longer need men. And they no longer feel like they have to have children. So, many are quite happy to instead just live alone.

Men aren't happy being alone. And a lot of them do want families. 100 years ago that would have happened for them and now instead it's not.

A lot of women who feel this way are really quite rude to the men that they assume are interested in them. Many are subconsciously rejecting being a homemaker and giving birth to babies in how they treat men. Some man is perfectly polite and the woman ghosts him and laughs about it.

And this plays a role in the 4 times higher suicide rate. Along with men just being more violent in general. And unable to express their feelings to anyone except a woman SO.

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She immediately began attacking me again. Trying to force me to do what she wanted.

"Why would you do such an awful thing?"

"Look. Just go away. I don't want anything to do with you. What you're doing isn't going to change anything."

"I just want to know why. Everything seemed fine and then you just disappeared."

....nonsense response.
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The Knowing
Everything is made clear. How your actions affected others. And what they were going through that affected their actions. For every moment of your life. Perfect memory will return and you will know. Avoid crowds?

One man for every 5 women in "polite" society. Or one man out of five considered acceptable to women. Because they reject everything that isn't extremely "normal". Because they want winners. Meanwhile men want to not be alone. The rejected men kill others and themselves. Themselves at 4 times the rate of women. Others at 20 times the rate of women.

The self proclaimed savior. It's not revenge. It's to save us all.

It's not me. It's we. I see through the fake smiles. We're miserable. I must destroy the social order for the sake of all. What happened to me personally is irrelevant and i was not effected by it at all.

S nord, w sites, j sea, d kelly, r carlyle, l cooper, m mccombe: the six witches. Captured. Comically declare him evil.

The girl who doesn't know she's writing romance fiction, who has no beta readers.

Change the time sequence for evan kime muto tennis fb message and add.....

Losing ian anthony is like the witch eating gretel is like the mom marrying the evil stepfather

Spending time with people, creative endeavors, playing musical instruments, running, tennis... you get the majority of your fulfillment, productive output, and/or improvement in the first hour for that day. Diminishing returns beyond that.  So it's not so terrible to spend an hour with your family, run for an hour, play music for an hour and write for an hour everyday.

Rewrite archetypal stories like wolfe does

Brothers grimm archetypes live on in modern settings

Character begins every conversation with a untrue accusation and a threat.

Most people are partials

A song called i wasn't there. A story called I wasn't there.

I want justice like a murdered child.

A man seeks to remember things he's forgotten

Destroyed potentials

The battlefield of creation vs the battlefield of murder. Birth vs murder. Women vs men. Manipulation vs physical violence.

The logistics of justice

Expand Johnny comes marching home.

The more fun someone is, the less likely they're a good person.

There's a kind of brief teleportation. Just for a few minutes at dusk. I usually go to the giant sequoias. But I could go lots of places. I can also go to the past. That can surely be dangerous though. Once I went to my own far past. But time paradoxes and for that matter, what could i have really done?

The perfect book should be a kind of masturbatory fantasy. The MC overcomes adversity again and again. Perhaps not too dark. But not paper tigers. He brushes off the stuff done to him. And he must have an understanding of people in order to overcome. Make everything a metaphor. Teleportation is routine but not expressly mentioned.

Trying to do something amazing really just to prove how special you are, how they were wrong to treat you so, means that you are filled with the desire for a kind of revenge.

Eternity, perfect memory and justice.
If so, why not gods that influence our thoughts? The holocaust and so on...

The stress of coherent thought when nearing sleep.

I think it's funny when people do something to their appearance to be different. Purple hair or whatever. If you really were different, you'd be doing your best to hide it. People who actually are different in a substantive way know better than to go around advertising it.

It's ok to be different, as long as your differences are completely superficial.

I have been unfairly misjudged 99% of the time.

She's imprinted on my soul.

The last of a genocided race.

Almost everyone acts like they're a good person in the beginning.

Reaching and reaching for what will never be.

Women. They kind of have to have a basically vapid pleasant demeanor to enjoy getting their cooch routinely pounded and then popping out babies.

Women have a herd mentality.

Correlate iq and friends
Correlate friends and online group participation
Correlate iq and online group participation

Ten mysteries
1. The statue with the strange inscription in the overgrown garden.
2. Unable to remember his past. There are hints. (It was mostly horrible and mostly good he doesn't remember. One other does remember but has mercy and doesn't tell him.) They're nearly immortal.
3. Good deed that goes unacknowledged finally helps someone hundreds of pages later.
4. Sorcerer's let demon inhabit them that will eventually take over their bodies.
5. Mysteries around magic

Raw spinach (squeaky mouth) followed by wine.

I see magic. Huge potentials that will never be realized. I must accept that always it has been so.

The mythic gathering. Revealed in the afterlife? 50 people? 1000? The reaper? Overlaps? One reaper for multiple gatherings?

Partial people.

Women's ugliness is generally legal while men's is physical violence. When it's legal you do it more and have less awareness that it's even wrong.

Judging others. Do they ever seem introspective? Ever admit to having faults.

The key to eating less is finding  stimulation from other things.

The alpha male wants to be loved by everyone. He cannot tolerate injustice.

One sleeps without sex by remembering that dreams are sacred. They are when we are transported to another world.

As i abstain from sex of any kind i increasingly turn to alpha male thinking. Attempts to be the alpha male. I don't want to just let anything go. I want justice more and more. But justice for me! I want those who have wronged me to truly apologize. I want them to understand that they were wrong. That i am good. But being good i think is in my mind a part of being the alpha. And I have to establish that I'm the alpha. The longer without, the more important it becomes. 

Those that you truly believe have wronged you can be transformed and made yours in the next world.

It's the subconsciously sadistic. They enjoy hurting others though they won't admit this to themselves. They make it ok by convincing themselves the person deserved it. They do this with terribly illogical reasoning. Reasoning so terrible you wonder how they can hold down a job and successfully make it to work. But the thing they only

The subconsciously sadistic have two kinds of thinking: the terrible illogic that they use to justify treating others viciously and that which they use to successfully keep their job, make it to work each day and so on. They lack adequate self awareness to realize what they're doing.

Stuck between the evil and the stupid.

Not enough people. Not enough smart people. Wasted my time on intellectual duds.