Was reading back over my blog. Starting back when I ran 3 miles on the treadmill in 20:59. Wanted to really see how I trained for that. Then I wondered why I went away from it. First i started going to longer (more painful) intervals. Seems I started also trying to increase my mileage to get ready for a half. Made the mistake of trying to run like that Japanese guy Yuki. Did 12 miles at 8:41 pace that way. Which isn't any good And wore myself out a bit that way. And then got a kidney stone. I didn't watch my hydration anywhere near well enough. And then I quit running. It was my last pb before I quit thanks to the kidney stone.

On the positive, I then got into tennis.

Back then I was thinking harder. Looking for a solution. But I think more of a easy solution. Some kind of formula that I could follow. Now I've quit looking for formulas. Now I have this little guy that takes up my time anyway. But feel like there isn't any formulas. Certainly you don't hear others talk of them. Though perhaps if they had found a formula they very well might not want to share.

But more likely it just comes back to going about things the wrong way. Having something messed up with whatever it is that was/is motivating me. Still I want to write. Simply because I want out. I dislike this world.