Dad taken back to hospital by ambulance on Friday for looked like a stroke but apparently was a partial seizure caused by low blood sugar. Low blood sugar caused by kidneys not clearing diabetic medicine properly. Very stressful day. Last two weeks also very stressful. He expects me to be his nurse 24/7. My sister (also a nurse) doesn't help. I've been in the hopsital more than 200 hours last two weeks. On top of this I keep getting slammed at work with horrible patient loads. To stay sane one has to keep some emotional distance from their patients, with being a family member in the hospital so much these last two weeks I've lost that and have been just panicking at work now.

I previously felt that even if I won the lottery I wanted to keep working (reducing my hours of course) but now, I dread work. Finally slammed again Saturday and it was finally just too much and I finally made a mistake. Nothing life threatened but I just feel sick, feel so bad want to quit. Called off Sunday basically for a 'mental health day' not that we're allowed any such thing. Just said I was "sick".

Apparently there's something in Little Debbie oatmeal cookies that triggers those sinus headaches for me. Had a headache starting around midnight for the last 12 hours. Hadn't had one in quite a while. Took aspirin. Now took tylenol. Think I'll be OK for my cello lesson today. It was last week but I postponed because I never had a chance to practice since the previous. Rescheduled then my dad got rushed to the hospital yet again so I still have barely played.

Mother also can barely walk because of back issue. They're both staying in the spare bedroom. The "treeroom". And I'm taking care of both of them. It's nice to have them here. Before just being across town we'd sometimes go weeks without seeing each other. Too bad it takes this to see them more often.